My life has exploded with busy-ness. I'm working a full-time job that feels like 2 jobs (and at 12 hours a day I spend working on curriculum, teaching, and grading, it IS two jobs) and taking 3 graduate courses to complete my Master's degree. It is complete insanity.
Yet somehow in the midst of all this, I still want to get pregnant? I must be crazy.
We've been trying to time this just right, because I want to have the baby during the summer 'off' months. This has become less and less important to me as the goal has really become 'just get pregnant whenever'. Now that I have a job, maternity leave will be available (I hope!) next school year.
This is our third cycle of trying. There have been times when I've been really frustrated because it felt like we were just going through the motions instead of really being in the moment. I keep wondering if something is physically wrong with me. I'm glad I learned the FAM method, because I know my body better than I ever have, but I am also concerned that I may not be able to get pregnant without help. It makes me feel inadequate.
In any case, I'm in the midst of THE two-week wait. Praying that my temps stay high past day 16, since that's been the longest my luteal phase has gone so far.We'll see....
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